Grieving: From Death to Life

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grief from death to life

There were many times when I wanted to give up. The pain was too great and immense. The difficulty of loss lies not just in the immediacy of it, but in all the reverberating ways in which it affects you and your life. In many ways, you must learn how to live again, how to breathe again.

I am here to say that it can be done. It is counter intuitive, but the way to survive grief is to open your heart to it, to allow yourself to feel it. To not be afraid of it, but to understand that it is a reflection of your love. You grieve because you love. You feel regret because you love. You long and feel a deep ache in your heart because you love. You love because it is your truest essence to do so.

Let the grief guide you to a deeper understanding of love and presence. And know that this is joy — that you have lost and yet still believe and hope, that despite the darkness, you choose to follow the light. You must continue to go on, to see how this new relationship with the light of yourself, within you, the one that your loved one helped nurture and grow, develops. You must continue to go on to see where this light leads.

To my readers — thank you for reading this post. it means so much to me. If you enjoyed it, I invite you to connect with me through the comments below and to share the post with someone who you think might also find it helpful in living with grief. You might also find my book, Grieving the Loss of a Love: How to Embrace Grief to Find True Hope and Healing After a Divorce, Breakup, or Death helpful to read or to pass along to others. Thank you again.

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